Thursday, May 31, 2012


त्यो  बेला थियो, जब म नेपाली थिएँ !
छर-छिमेकमा सबै नेपाली थियौं,
नेपाली हुनु हाम्रो गर्व थियो
रातो र चन्द्र सुर्य हाम्रो पहिचान
चार जात अनि छत्तीस वर्ण
पुर्व मेची देखि पश्चिम महाकाली
हिमाल पहाड तराई, हामी सबै नेपाली
कोहि छैन पराइ !
अनि आए नेता रुपी ब्वाँसाहरु !
कोहि संसद, कोहि सडक अनि कोहि जंगलबाट
मुलुकको मुहार फेर्ने झुटो नाटक मन्चन गर्दै
१५००० बढी निर्दोष नेपालीलाइ  बलिको  बोको  बनाइ
ससक्त  युवा शक्तिलाइ विदेशिने बाटो देखाएर
मुलुक आज साम्प्रदायिक खाडलमा खसाल्दै छन्
राष्ट्रीयताको ढोंग रचेर
अराजकताको नाङ्गो नाच नाचिरहेछन यहाँ
नत यिनलाई लाज छ नत कुनै सरम
राष्ट्रीयता आज विस्तारबाद सामु झुकी सक्यो
खै तिमीहरुले बुझेको मर्म !!


परजीवी जस्तै मुलुकलाई डसेर तिमीले चार बर्ष
स्वार्थ पुरा गर्यौ आफ्नो
तर अहिले गल्ति सबै अरुको, अनि
तिमीहरु पनि माथि को ओभानो
दाजु-भाईलाई जात-जातमा फुटाई
हिन्दु, बौद्ध अनि मुसलमानको आत्मियतालाई टुटाई
जुन जातियताको राजनीति गर्यौ तिमीले
अक्षम्य  अपराध हो यो, लाग्ने छ आँसु आमाको


खै के भनू म अरु यँहा, निशब्द छु अहिले
तर एक दिन आउने छ,
जो इतिहाँस मा लेखिने छ
तिमिले गरेका सबै पाप र दुस्कर्म को हिसाब हुने छ
गरेका गल्ति लाई आत्म ग्लानी गरि अघि बढ कपुत हरु हो समय हुँदै
नत्र ! त्यो दिन अब टाढा छैन
जब हाम्रो शोक अनि सक्ति....आक्रोश मा बदलिने छ
तब तिमि हरु ले एक मुट्ठी सास अनि एक घुट्को पानी भन्न पाउने छैनौ !!

We may have had  plenty of Revolutions in the History of our Nation. But what we really need at this moment is an Intellectual Revolution. Changing the name of a System doesn't make the big deal when the Rulers are the same with the same old mentality. May God bless us all Nepalese to overcome smoothly form this kinds of Political Crisis and many critical conditions in our society.  

ओहो! त्यो त संबिधान पो रहेछ !!


मध्यांतर पछिको समय
उ आउला भन्ने आशामा
पर्खेर बसीरहें
न त कुनै पत्र
न त कुनै फोन
टाढा कोही रोएको
सुनिन्थ्यो कोही कराएको
सेतो बस्त्र बाँसमा लपेटिएको
बोकर हिड्दै थिए मान्छेहरु
कुटिल मुस्कान ओठमा
आफैले जन्माएर
आफैले रेटेको रे
कस्को लाश होला भनेर
टोलाउदै थिएँ म
ओहो! त्यो त संबिधान पो रहेछ

Monday, May 28, 2012

मेरो मातृभूमि: नेपाल


सुन्दर-शान्त-विशाल
मुटुभन्दा प्यारो
मेरो देश नेपाल
सोचमग्न छु
परदेश भूमिमा बसेर
छटपटी हुन्छ
एक घुट्को सोमरस पिउँछु
घाउहरू चर्चराउँछन्
लामो सर्को धुँवा उडाउँछु
शितल हुन्छ
सुकेका छैनन्
अझै रगतका टाटाहरू
रोकेका छैनन
टुहुरा लाला-बाला
अनि
बिधुवाका भक्कानोहरू
फुलेका छैनन लाली-गुराँस
उम्रेका छैनन बनमाराहरू
रिसको आभेसले झटारो हान्यो
भर गिलास सोमरसले मिटाइ दिए
लामो सर्को तानेर धुँवामा उडाइ दिए
कहिले जङल पसेर
कहिले शहर बसेर
बिकासको बत्ती
झ्याप्प-झ्याप्प निभायौं
न बस्न दियौ
त बाँच्न दियौ
युवा शक्ती बिदेश भगायौ
कन्सिरी तातेर आयो
एक घुट्कोमा बोतल रित्याए
एक श्वासमा खिल्ली सिद्याए
सोमरसले घुमाएको हो कि
धुँवाले उडाएको
आधा-बिहोसिमा बरबराएछु
राष्ट्रनायकहरू हो !
मेरो देश आज
चिहानमा सुतेको छ

Happiness: a Journey not a Destination





















Things only heard now  I want to feel.


"For a long time it had seemed to me that life was about to begin. But there was always some obstacle in the way, something to be gotten through first, some unfinished business, time still to be served, a debt to be paid. Then life would begin. At last it dawned on me that these obstacles were my life."

This perspective has helped me to see that there is no way to happiness. Happiness is the way.

So, treasure every moment that you have. And treasure it more because you shared it with someone special, special enough to spend your time ... and remember that time waits for no one ...

So stop waiting until you finish school
until you go back to school
until you lose ten pounds
until you gain ten pounds
until you have kids
until your kids leave the house
until you start work
until you retire
until you get married
until you get divorced
until Friday night
until Sunday morning
until you get a new car or home
until your car or home is paid off
until spring, until summer
until fall ... until winter
until you are off welfare
until the first or fifteenth
until your song comes on
until you've had a drink
until you've sobered up

until you die
until you are born again
to decide that there is no better time than right now to be happy

Happiness is a journey ... not a destination!!


- by Crystal Boyd 

Saturday, May 26, 2012

ILLUSION of Love


Abudhabi: UAE International Airport. International Terminal.

Love is just an illusion,
Once you enter, there's hardly any solution,
It is just a game of mind
Wake up and see what you left behind.


 Wishing that someone is all mine,
Definitely, just a waste of time.
Some feel without him/her I will die,
Trust yourself dude!! you will survive.


 Long distance relation, full of imagination,
Better use your brain for other creation.
Holding hand and walking in rain,
Few happy moments and lots of pain.


 Beside love there are other things to focus,
Do not turn yourself into a carcass.
Spending life together is all that about!!!
Then why its full if jealousy, betray, and doubt.


 Movies, Novels, and other sources we hear,
Use your logic to overcome emotional affair.
Love,..LoVe,..LOVE..what the HECK is love.???
greeting, kisses and dating....beside it there is nothing above.......

The momentary Glimpse

the Bleeding HEART !!
The Flying Horse :) 
Once upon a time in the Past was gone Crazy with HAIR !!

At Frankfurt International Airport. :) with beloved ones.
sometimes even the Floor of Library turns Colorful. 
Alien Light on the Street. :D

Utilizing the rest Time :D Medical books are so boring. 
:)


Blieskastel; I just remembered Dolakha, heaven where I born. :)

Saarbrucken: a city of light and night is just awesome here when you have a good company.





Reflection: mirror never lies.











Actually I have written this ...long long ago. If I am not wrong, I wrote this most probably in 2006 during my High-schooling. And I think it worth to be shared here in this Blog. So here it goes....

"If I had a flower for every time I thought of you... I could walk through my garden forever."
 Laying under the stars, Angels crying ....Blood coming from my broken heart,....tears in my eyes,...memories in my mind...it was to hard to say good bye.....so young me and already tired of life.. Destruction are not always noisy as bombs exploding...sometime the ultimate catastrophes are as quiet as feather falling on the ground......no one else can really hear your heart breaking except you...it is the sound of you curled upon a tiny ball and crying softly in the night, the sound of regret pounding inside your brain with every heartbeat, it is the soundtrack of memories torturing you,..it is the sound of a telephone that doesn´t ring,...the sound of first unwanted teardrop touching your skin,...it is the suffling of feet walking away from you,...the sound of your soul shattering into a million pieces at recognizing the word "GOODBYE". It is the unrelenting plaintive baby meows of an abandoned kitten outside an ignoring door. It is not easy getting up on our feet after crippling fall but there is no other way but to stand up and move on. Life is a chain, that all of us go through, falling in love, getting hurt and vowing not to love again...promising not to love again and becoming miserable all our lives. They say only time can heal the wounds of broken heart. That time makes it easier to accept the loss of the people we love, when we close our eyes and listen to the echoes of our heart.....we all fall in love and there are times that we love so much, ...that we lose ourselves in our own emotions....we may have lost it but the again..!§% we have to say goodbye to the feelings we wanted to stay with us for ever,....let us not wave our hands with a heavy heart for love..will have to set its wings free and should find a place where it belongs to.We should not hold it in our hands for we may never find the strength to let it go when it decides to leave. But if it doesn't, then we should never let our lives taken by it for life should not end where heartaches begin. love will always be as it always has been silent, mysterious and deeply profound. But love is only a gift given to us. We should only embrace its warmth and glow while it lasts and then freely open our hearts when it is the time to say goodbye. We by mistake have looked at love as need to be fulfilled....its our fault that we fall in love.


Friday, May 25, 2012

NEPAL: My Motherland !


Still cannot get to sleep, I turn lazily to the other side of the bed. I open my eyes to glance at the alarm clock; the green digits read 2:00. Five more hours and it is going to come to life, force me out of bed to go to University, to work, and back home late at night. Time never stops, does it? Time passes away with each blink of an eye, and it is up to us to utilize it. The feeling of uneasiness grips me again; and the reason is suddenly clear. I have been thinking about what next after graduation.
There are many Nepali students like me in Germany, and many more scattered in countries all over the globe, who have left Nepal in pursuit of higher education. The number is definitely substantial, as I myself have only a handful of friends back home. As students we make immense sacrifices to get that degree we came here for. We think of graduating as our salvation. We hope for an International dream, to get rich and have that perfect house and the perfect job. But what are the chances? And what about Nepal, the essence of who we are? I had an array of emotions. Shock, admiration, confusion, respect.

My confusion is indeed justifiable. When one goes back to Nepal and gets a “good job,” one may earn monthly a week’s wage here, even for a minimum paying work. There is also the question about the lack of opportunities. It is indeed tough for a country to get investors (both foreign and domestic), to invest money when it is still politically instable. Another opportunity lost, because Nepal could gain a lot from the recent trend in globalization. Over 80% of the total Nepali population relies on agriculture; over 80% of the European population were agricultural too, but in the 17th century. It was before the industrial revolution there, which transformed their society from agricultural to industrial and today to technological. Are we 4 centuries behind? It pains me to admit, but the answer sadly is “perhaps.” Perhaps, although our county has had many political revolutions, what we really need is an intellectual revolution.

Nepal doesn’t lack talent or intellect. Nor does it lack natural beauty or appropriate geographical location. I think Nepal is very capable of competing in today’s global market; all it needs really is us – we are the future of Nepal, and it is up to us to determine its fate. Most of the people that I talked to did want to go back to Nepal if there were opportunities. They talked about the prestige and respect they would have back home; the familiarity, family, quality of life and self-respect. We all saw no reason for going back.
As I analyzed my confusion again, I realized that I was asking the wrong question. It is not just the question of where we will be working after graduation. The real question is what will each of us give back to the country to which we owe our identity? Or will there be no members of our generations to shoulder the responsibility – will there just be a void?

Back on Track !


wondering... what iz Life?

On this Journey of life, there are many doors. Doors of all colors, offering you many choices, opportunities; new directions and learning. Then with perfect timing, at the perfect place, in a perfect way, one door appears. This door is like no other, it shines brightly, and it radiates love and light. You feel warmth, its guidance; it touches your Heart and Soul like no other. You smile and step forward, knowing that this is the Door to your DESTINY. It’s amazing how whilst in a crowded room we can still feel so alone. How you perceive things is up to you, nobody else. It’s your choice. Have the courage to move forward. Trust that you are always guided, you are never alone, and you couldn’t be if you tried. What you fear you attract, everything you think, feel, believe and say becomes true for you. It may not be the universal truth; however, it becomes true in your world. What you radiate you attract. What you fear the most, offers you the most. To see the change you must be the change. So I say to you,’ Grasp what you fear and stop running from who you are,’ because you will always be hiding from yourself, and it is no more difficult to accept it , than it is to run away from it, both require energy. Then why not to have the courage to stop running away and choose to become the person you are destined to be? SOMETIMES YOU NEED TO THANK GOD FOR UNANSWERED PRAYERS. There is a choice and the choice is yours. Do you choose to stay in the dark, or do you choose to find the courage to step out into the light. What you do! Does it fill your soul or just your Pocket? Have you thrown yourself into work to avoid your calling? Fear keeps you in a place called FATE. Taking a step forward in faith, leads you to your Destiny, your highest potential. This is a place where miracles happen. A choice towards destiny always empowers you.  People, Things and Experiences are just a part of your learning, playing a role in your life’s journey, always offering an opportunity for growth. Forgive, release and preserve the learning. Always moving forward without the negative weight of past experiences. Trust your intuition; pass on messages, no matter how strange it may seem to you, just trust. The worst thing that can happen is that the Person might say, ’No.’ or, ‘I’m sorry. It doesn’t mean anything to me, not yet anyway.’ Or, ‘It may mean everything and you could save a life.’ Just for a moment, be still relax, Just for a moment be open, receive Know that you are never alone, you couldn’t be if you tried. Ask and you shall receive, just be very careful what you wish for.

If we would stop for just a moment, listen to our heart, our guidance and trust in the feelings and messages we receive, we will be guided always in the best direction for us. This does not ever guarantee a pain free life because we all have things to experience and learn, but it does guarantee a smoother more direct journey to your destiny. Trust in your guidance, getting there by first class, business, or even economy has to be better than walking the long way. Isn’t it time that you listened to your guidance and go back on track. When the day comes that you ask yourself, ‘Why am I here? What’s my purpose?’ Get ready because that’s the day your life will change. “It’s not what you do; it’s why you do what you do.” Free will and choice is how you get there, how you choose to perceive the event and how long you stay there! When you change your perception of the past, your future cannot stay the same. You’re thinking changes. When your thoughts change you then radiate a different energy, your current situation and future will be different because you are energetically not the same person. If there is somewhere you’re meant to be or someone you are meant to meet, then your guides will try and try again until their mission is carried out. Remember every raindrop that falls on you is meant for you. Trusting and having faith in your guidance is probably one of the most difficult things to master, the divine does not unfortunately knock on your door delivering a message with fireworks that fill the night sky. It’s soft and subtle, open to interpretation and easily made to look like nonsense by the left brain. Single drop of Tear of yours matters in the Ocean because without it everything would be different. The small things often turn out to be the really big things. Free will and choice is that you get to choose if your ripple is of negative or positive energy. Is your Energy contributing towards the saving or destroying of the planet. Remember the reflection of all you do itself in many ways. Not all of these are tangible. You don’t need to know how big ripple effect is, just know that it is enormous. Isn’t it time you listened to your guidance and got back on track!

My Destiny


Feels like I am middle of nowhere
But I know where I should lead,
There are endless roads
But I know where my destiny is...

Feels like everything is out of way
But my destiny lies still,
waiting for me to come
As time is passing away...

Future seems to full of regrets
As life is moving like a burning cigarettes,
I know where I should go
But still I hear the sound " NO!!'

Having a desiring dream
As to fly high and touch the sky,
But still I am motionless
And I don't know myself why???

Time is valuable I know
But when would I learn to utilize it,
YES!!! from tomorrow onward
I will definitely move forward...

Is this the answer
that my heart is looking for?
Sounds right,
But when would I learn to fight...

I must raise my inner soul
As I feel Sucked by a black hole,
Full of enjoyment, infatuation, and fun
But all these things will be quickly gone..

So what you have been waiting for
As still the time is passing away,
If you still don't care
Your life will be a worst nightmare...

Where there's a will there's a way
Kurt says, it’s better to burn out than to fade away,
I will do anything as it’s now or never
To keep my destiny with me forever and ever...